if not in this life

than the next.

It's always been my way to be over analytical and pick at things that are bothering me. I feel like I've opened a brand new door leading to exciting new possibilities now that I've made another of my 'moves'. A friend of mine told me that both she and I were the type of people that were meant to be 'free'. I totally and whole-heartedly back up her observation. I've undoubtedly opened Pandora's box and have found within multitudes of her best shit. Frankly, it was due time for this occurrence to pass. Had I held my breath and wished for my dreams and aspirations to realize themselves--I'd've passed blue in the face and none the smarter.

I let good things pass me by because I've always doubted my abilities and motivations to see things through. I've always pondered if I was a lethargic overachiever or a highly capable half-wit. I've found that I am content being neither. We all pass through life floating over our human conditions, too timid, too frightened of the possibility that we can be greater than what others expect us to be. So hah! you non-believers and doubters and naysayers and other troublesome like. A big 'told-you-so' to the ones who thought so lowly of me--a big fuck you, forget about you. I have climbed over the dead shells of my unrealized dreams past and have rightfully found my way to the realms of self-realization. Yay me!